I am sad. I am angry. I am angry I am sad.
My family is broken for reasons we can’t control and I am angry and I am sad! I am angry that my nephews have been forced to live a life of uncertainty, I am angry that my brother and sister-in-law have been forced to carry a load they should not have to bare. I am sad that it’s too hard to talk about, I am sad I feel I can’t talk at all!
I am sad. I am angry. I am angry THEY are sad.
I am angry that I feel guilty about the question ‘why?’ And I am sad that I feel guilty of the happiness with MY kids! I want to SCREAM! I am sad that I feel when I gained two beautiful nephews, I lost a brother and sister, and I am angry that I can no longer see their light.
I am sad. I am angry. I am angry WE are sad.
I am sad that the tears that stream down my face are NOTHING compared to their
tears. I am sad that my parents don’t know what to say. I am angry most of the time nothing is said at all! I am sad and I am angry because I LONG for relationship that may never be. I am sad that my faith seems weak. I am angry that their faith is being tested. I am angry and I am sad because I fear we all may fail! I am sad that I feel guilty for showing my heart and I am angry that I feel this way ALL THE TIME! I am angry that there is nothing I can do. I am sad that there is nothing I can say.
God is sad. God is angry. God is angry we are sad.
God is angry when things happen to His children because of the sin in this world and God is sad when He has to let it be so His power can be shown. God is angry when I don’t long for relationship with HIM the way I long for it with THEM. God is angry because He loves us so. God is sad when circumstances prevent us from trusting in His love.
Though I am angry and sad,
Though WE are angry and sad,
Though HE is angry and sad,
Even when we don’t allow ourselves to see or feel it,
NOTHING can separate us from His love.